Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Just say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that's disregard
Find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between
...
...
And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves

Remancipation

AM viva tomorrow. Almost all the end-of-sem work is complete, and after ages will I get to breathe free again.
Firefox is working normally again, surprisingly after a pacman -Su done overnight yesterday.
I am now almost decided to work on a Natural Language Semantics project. We(Ujjwal and I) need to start looking a bit into the research part since we are going into this project for academic reasons(not to be disclosed in a blog:P hehe jk.) but I don't get the part about research. Then again, the picture should become utterly clear with a bit of insight into AI.

I am placed reasonably in the class 55/70 in the papers we have received till now. But the worse, in the form of PEE is yet to come. Hopefully, I do well in Deori POM tomorrow and the PEE does bring in surprises.

[By the way, I will start working on the Linux post as soon as this work hell gets over.]

The shadow proves the sunshine

I have alot of things going for me at this very time, you know. Just confirmed that I have my regular dose of flu again. So that goes for a few slow days around.
Happiness seems to elude me nowadays. Gosh I need to do an attitude makeover.

Apart from that, everything is pretty fine. I got a 17 on 20 in our Applied Mechanics paper(mid-semester), in which our teacher just thought it wise to distribute marks for free(I didn't deserve more than 13 if the papers were checked properly). But that goes for everybody, when there are people getting 19 and 20 marks like anything. Then there are a few unfortunate(?) cases, what can I say..
A few other exam papers are also due(namely Math, PEE, Intro 2 Prog., and POM). In addition to this, our first semester End-Sem exam results about to come any day this or next week. So yeah, pretty happening times ahead.

Ahh, but this post was about trust..what I was about to title this post, but well..maybe.
I feel a real lack of trust nowadays. Friends doesn't seem a familiar notion now. Everybody is just mad about making their career and doing well in life. And everybody is willing to sacrifice and use their so-called friends as stepping stones which they can use and move to higher levels.
So people like me(undecisive and non-directed) are caught in dilemmas which feel like unsolvable Paradoxes. All this might sound really cliched but whatever.
So yeah I don't really feel too well about life nowadays. I feel depression looming in on me. I feel weak.
But I guess I need to develop a fighting spirit and fight these evil and negative spirits off of me.

Anyway, gotta drink muh tea, got a little cold
Gotta stretch those legs, feeling a li'l old
I hope in the near time I would do good and find
A person and friend who might just change my mind.

[Posts to come: A newbie's experience to linux, and the glamorous(or most talked about :D) desktop environments, and my favorite distro and DE]